There are these blinking lights that create a mini-rave on the main road I take every morning to drop off my hubby at work. Normally these lights drive me bonkers. They tend to make the horrible traffic on the road even more distracting and disturbing.
But today, when my eyes caught these lights they drew my attention to the sky. Stunning shades of pink and purple and blue blended together like a kickass woven blanket.
You're probably asking yourself why I'm talking about the sky when this blog is supposed to be about my word for this year. And the reason is simple. My word is...
I was journaling and playing with my Merriam-Webster Dictionary/Thesaurus for a good week in the new year to try and pick my word. I was behind due to a bout of the plague going around, and was debating on if I even wanted a word this year. But I bought myself a cool maker's kit from MyIntent, and I still had some bracelets left. I wanted to use it, dammit.
I wanted a word that would give me a boost. My word for last year was "Start" and while I intended for it to give me a push to just do something, anything, what it ended up doing was making me feel like I had yet another chore, or yet another thing to do. Last year was a massive fail. And I wanted a word this year that wouldn't be another "To Do."
After almost giving up, I started to notice something. I noticed the word "Joy" pop up again and again. I wanted to find "Joy" in my writing again. I wanted to read books I en"Joy" this year. I wanted to be excited and find the "Joy" in everything, even failure.
For example...I am sitting in a McDonald's writing this between dropping one kid off at school, and heading in for an IEP meeting for another. The place is completely empty, so I had my choice of seats. Yay!
Then group of older folks came in, looked at the entirely empty place and sat...right next to me on the same bench seat. UGH.
But I felt my bracelet. I felt my intention for this year and I stopped before my brain could start the usual spiral. As they begin talking LOUDLY about their memories of their parents' farms in the 40's (someone grew peanuts), I downloaded a white noise app on my phone. I've been meaning to get a white noise app on my new phone, and hadn't taken the time. This allowed me to check something off my massive to do list, and it's something that I'm doing just for me. Pretty damn good time.
I'm listening to birds chirp in the rainforest at the moment, and have a little smile on my face. Also have a bit of a grin because if these older conservative folks look over at my computer and get nosey, my hot little cover for "Bottled Up" is right next to where I'm typing these words. Heh.
I'm ready to go on a journey this year, and instead of planning out my day...something that never seems to work out for me...I'm going to head out into the world each day searching for the things that bring me joy.
My word is "Joy". What's yours?