Something clicked in me, and even the basic daily tasks felt like mountains I had to climb every day. Add in the stress of the holidays, and the stress of both hubby and I working retail during the holidays, and my mind just started shutting down.
I had to make a decision.
I love talking on this blog and chatting on my social media outlets, but what I did know was that if I went online with the mental state I was in, I would be a huge bummer.
I guess I could have lied and posted a front of happiness, but at the heart of it, I hate being dishonest. And where I was at last month, being cheery and motivating...that would have been dishonest.
The holidays hit me hard every damn year. And I think instead of forcing myself to "get in the spirit" for 2019, I'm going to plan on taking time off. So, no matter how well I maintain a blog through the year, don't plan to see me much in November and December.
What brought me back to my blog today? What had me up and awake at 6:30am on New Years Day?
A fresh start.
I've always felt there was something incredibly beautiful about changing over the calendar and starting fresh. There is a beauty to wiping the slate clean and making a resolution or two. I'll have a few posts this week about some of my New Year traditions, so stay tuned for those.
What I wanted to do today, is dip my toes back in the internet waters. I wanted to say I'm sorry for disappearing like I did, and I wanted to let you know that if you get to a point where you need to decide between social media and your sanity, that it's important you pick your sanity. I did, and I can't say I regret it.
It's important to refill your own well before other people start dipping their buckets down your shaft.
I'm ripping off my band-aid today and getting back online. I hope you'll forgive me for the disappearing act. And I hope you'll come along with me as I wiggle my way back into the digital world again.
If you're dealing with a holiday hangover, (not just the champagne hangover from your NYE toasts), then come along with me. I'll share what I'm trying, and what works for me as I get back on track.
This morning, I went through my planners. Yes...planners. Meaning multiple. Don't judge me.
I pulled out all the pages for the last months. I didn't even look at them. I tossed them away and started with a fresh set of monthly pages for January 2019.
I highly recommend doing this if you, like me, suffer from planner guilt. I didn't use my planners much in November and December aside from the very basic family activities and appointments. The empty ugly pages would mock me if I left them there. So I ripped those bad boys out and shoved them in a drawer. (I don't throw them away just in case I want to brave my "To Do" lists at a later date.)
Now I have a whole month filled in with the basics, and a few pre-plan items I want to work on. Like this blog.
I took a break. But break time is over, and I'm excited to get back to work. Let's do this shit.